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第 23 章

那扇松木门是开着的。

是从里面打开的。

是一个年长生灵稳定的手打开的——他以七十三年的雪松木匣纪律、每个礼拜日下午四点零一分上闩的纪律,在二〇二六年三月某个礼拜二下午四点钟、面对汉江畔 JL 大楼礼拜二—礼拜四排练厅那礼拜二上午十一点半由四件乐器编制变为五件乐器编制的此刻——学会了:北村宅院的松木门,不要上闩。

他自己在十一点十五分就把它打开了。

他没有,在二〇二六年三月某个礼拜二上午十一点十五分、中间那栋韩屋的抹楼上、那场正在升起的定雪(薄雾)里,回到内房(anbang)去。

他停在那里——以排练厅十一点十二分镜面墙的同一刻——停在二〇二六年三月某个清冷晴朗冬日礼拜二上午、北村宅院中间那栋韩屋抹楼的下阶:这个七十三年来在每个礼拜日下午四点零一分都是北村宅院里唯一一只生灵的家伙,如今,以五件乐器的编制,不再是唯一的那一只。

他在抹楼下阶停了四小时四十五分钟——这正是 JL 大楼那辆 Genesis 轿车要花的时间:从容地走礼拜二上午汉南—北村环线,再换乘干净从不停歇的首尔地铁三号线,再走那段上北村山坡的短路——为的是把那位斯坦福训练出的、忠清道破除派一脉的侨胞送来;右肩是破除派的小妹妹,左肩是上水洞二十四小时刨冰店里那只弘大味的独脚鬼,半步之后是北汉山北坡的四尾生灵;她自己四百年又三天前发出的那一通私人召唤,在定雪升起的此刻,已经决定了。

那四小时四十五分钟,在二〇二六年三月某个清冷晴朗冬日礼拜二上午、中间那栋韩屋抹楼的下阶上,就是那四小时四十五分钟。

他没有,在下阶上,从那件炭灰色羊毛大衣的内袋里把手机掏出来——那件大衣,是他在礼拜日下午四点零六分的第二口呼吸之后、礼拜日上午内房东门旁那张矮松木椅边,套上的;他套的不是他自己四百年纪律里那件炭灰色羊毛毛衣——那件毛衣,已经被矮桌上四点零六分的第二次表决、尤其是四点二十三分那一滴泪——下了北村山坡,穿在那位斯坦福训练出的侨胞身上;而那个第二次表决,正是她做下的。

他没有,在下阶上,查看 JL 大楼。

他没有查看大峙洞他那三条家教链。

他没有查看北村他那四间韩药诊所。

他没有查看那家以韩智元名义注册的控股公司——那家控股公司从二〇二六年二月二十四日礼拜日傍晚五点零三分起,就是一位斯坦福训练出的、忠清道破除派一脉侨胞名下的控股公司;而她那位在大田的祖母,以清州坟前那场定雪,是这一脉里唯一一位、其决定能让这家控股公司在二〇二六年二月二十二日礼拜日的从容下午——经由 JL 董事长之手——挂在韩智元名下的女子。

他在下阶上,四小时四十五分钟,呼吸。

他呼吸了一次。他呼吸了第二次。他呼吸了第三次。

他在下阶上,把舌下那块大理石的温热稳定,稳定在那块大理石的温热上。

它将要——在二〇二六年三月某个礼拜二下午第四个钟头的下阶上、以破除派的五件乐器编制——成为破除派长女走近时、那块大理石稳定的温热。


她上来了。

她上着北村山坡,身上是那件年长生灵自己四百年纪律里的炭灰色羊毛毛衣——那件毛衣的纪律,已经在礼拜日下午四点零六分的第二口呼吸里,结束了;毛衣外面套着那位斯坦福训练出的侨胞那件 Theory 灰色大衣;大衣内袋里是那本绿丝带的 JL 笔记本,里面夹着那位老仁寺洞味的女子(她以右肩这位破除派小妹妹算来,是大邱崔敏智外婆的外婆)在桑皮纸上以朱砂写下的符咒(bujeok);右肩是破除派小妹妹,灰色开衫罩在柔软黑 T 外面,开衫内袋里也藏着一方白亚麻手帕、上面有她自己的符咒;左肩是弘大味独脚鬼,穿着冬日江水色的棕色绗缝马甲、戴着没有任何标志的黑色棒球帽;半步之后是北汉山北坡的四尾生灵,穿着 JL 大楼一位礼拜二上午声乐学员、在二〇二六年三月礼拜二下午四点钟会穿的那件黑色羽绒服。

那辆 Genesis 在三点四十八分把她们放在了北村文化中心。

她们一路走上来。

她们走着,以五件乐器的编制、以二〇二六年三月清冷晴朗冬日礼拜二下午、走了那段上北村山坡的六分钟路——那段路,正是那位斯坦福训练出的侨胞在二〇二六年二月二十二日礼拜日下午第一次走上来时所走的那段。

她走着,是同样的步速。

她走着,不是——以破除派小妹妹、以定雪、以那进一步的一块、以五件乐器的编制——第一个礼拜日下午那种缓慢平直从容的朝鲜母亲步态,而是一位忠清道破除派长女稳定的朝鲜母亲步态;她那位大田的祖母,已经以自己母亲清州坟前的定雪、以礼拜二下午三点十一分的那通两分钟电话,只说了一句:

孙女啊。上山去。我已经,依我们这一脉的定雪,把该说的说尽了。剩下的,是你的。

她当时说:奶奶,您上来吗。

她祖母停顿了。

她祖母停顿了三口呼吸的工夫。

她祖母说:孙女啊。我会,依我们这一脉的定雪,上来。我不会今天上来。我会在那一天上来——那一天,是当年朝鲜宫廷巫女、忠清道破除派一脉之女、在仁祖元年四月初四清晨第二刻、仁王山东肩禅岩花岗岩顶上所决定的那一天:一位忠清道破除派长女,左腕缠着四股编织的白亚麻丧带,以三神奶奶的织机算来,是要上山的那一天。那一天,依我对我们这一脉定雪的解读,是大韩民国总统在位第二年五月初七的早晨——那位总统,依破除派延续而来,是欠下一通私人召唤、欠给他总统府秘书长的那一位。那一天的早晨,依西历,是礼拜二下午之后的第四天。那一天的早晨,我会,依七十九年来一直把那通私人召唤往前承担、的纪律,到北村山坡上、到北村宅院的松木门前。在那一天之前,孙女啊——这四天,就是你以定雪所被给予的四天:在北村宅院中间那栋韩屋内房的矮桌上,跟那位四百年纪律已经在四点零六分第二口呼吸里结束了的年长生灵,去学那通私人召唤的语法。仔细学,孙女。那语法,不是任何其他韩国一脉的语法。那语法,依这一脉延续而来,是你的。

奶奶又说:把破除派小妹妹带上。她,依那位老仁寺洞味的女子算来,是其大邱外婆——以这一年二月初七厨房水槽上方镜中那张脸算来——是唯一一位、其在破除派上的决定与我同享的韩国外婆的那一位韩国身躯。

奶奶又说:把独脚鬼带上。他,依那位年长生灵七十三年的雪松木匣纪律算来,是北村宅院里唯一一只、其纪律使五件乐器编制在礼拜二下午成为五件乐器编制的生灵。

奶奶又说:把北坡那只四尾生灵带上。她,依礼拜六上午七点十五分 B3 第二根柱子算来,是唯一一只、其纪律已经在那私人钟点里,决定与延续而来的破除派一同站立、而不是与她自己一九五三年北汉山北坡那位前辈的转世生灵一同站立的生灵。

奶奶又说:孙女啊。上去。

我说:我没有在电话里告诉您的那一块。

奶奶说:孙女啊。我已经,依七十九年,知道那一块。那一块,是我以三神奶奶的织机、一直等着被告知的那一块。我只是告诉你:我并未告知它;而那一桩告知,当它到来——在一个崭新算计、一脉延续而来的破除派、第一年五月某个礼拜六上午的一张矮桌上——它将是那一桩告知。

奶奶又说:孙女啊。去吧。

她去了。

她去了——以三点十一分的电话、以右肩破除派小妹妹、以左肩弘大味独脚鬼、以半步之后北坡的四尾生灵——上着二〇二六年三月清冷晴朗冬日礼拜二下午的北村山坡,往北村宅院的松木门前去;那扇松木门,以定雪升起之故,已在礼拜二上午十一点十五分从里面打开了。

她在四点钟到达松木门。

她没有,在门前,敲门。

她径直走了进去。

她在二〇二六年三月礼拜二下午第四个钟头,穿着一位四百年纪律已经结束的年长生灵的炭灰色羊毛毛衣,走进了北村宅院的松木门;右肩是破除派小妹妹,左肩是独脚鬼,半步之后是北坡的四尾生灵;她穿过内院,七厘米厚的雪如今已化回三厘米——那是破除派湿润的定雪

他在下阶上。

他在中间那栋韩屋抹楼的下阶上,穿着一位四百年纪律已经结束的年长生灵的炭灰色羊毛大衣,青瓷杯捧在手中。

那只青瓷杯,四小时四十五分钟之后,是空的。

他站起身来。

他在二〇二六年三月某个礼拜二下午第四个钟头、中间那栋韩屋抹楼的下阶上,以一只生灵从容的朝鲜士人姿态站起——这只生灵四百年的纪律,原本是「她来到时他便站起」的那一只;如今,这纪律已经——以五件乐器的编制——同意不再是「一只年长生灵为一只年轻生灵而站起」的纪律,而是「一只年长生灵为破除派一脉长女而站起」的纪律;那一脉,已经以那口平直无元音的呼吸,决定了。

他鞠躬十五度。

我鞠躬十五度。

他向我右肩的破除派小妹妹鞠躬。

十五度。

她鞠躬十五度。

他向我左肩的独脚鬼鞠躬。

五度。

独脚鬼颔首。

五度。

他向半步之后北坡的四尾生灵鞠躬。

五度。

她回礼。

五度。

二〇二六年三月某个礼拜二下午第四个钟头、北村宅院中间那栋韩屋抹楼下阶的「五—五—十五—十五」,以五件乐器的编制,是第一次确认。

他开口了,以一位四百年纪律已经结束的生灵那种谨慎的朝鲜士人嗓音:

韩氏。(Han-ssi)

我开口了,以二〇二六年三月某个礼拜二下午第四个钟头、抹楼下阶上、一位斯坦福训练出的、忠清道破除派一脉侨胞所使用的朝鲜母亲式语法:

社长님。(Sajangnim)

他说:敏智氏。姜社长。海莉氏。

那三位以一种被五件乐器编制、被带到下阶上的三只生灵所特有的、干净不羞怯而谨慎的韩语开口:

社长님。

他再鞠了一躬。

十五度。

他说:请上来。

我们上去了。


二〇二六年三月某个礼拜二下午四点半,北村宅院中间那栋韩屋的内房,在北村屋顶上韩国残冬清冷晴朗的冬日下,是那间内房。

内房中央的矮桌,是那张矮桌。

那床温突(ondol)地暖上叠好的被褥——是他在二〇二六年三月某个礼拜日灰色清晨七点零三分、四点十一分的灰色钟点之后、以及破除派长女四点十五分离去之后,亲手叠好的——叠着。

西墙那只矮松木柜——在礼拜六上午雪松木匣取出、礼拜日下午桌上陈说、礼拜日傍晚雪松木匣放回之后——是关上的。

那只雪松木匣,在下层抽屉上方那块矮松木搁板上、停在二〇二六年三月某个礼拜日清晨四点十三分它所在的位置——也就是那个灰色清晨我并未取走它的位置。

他坐下。

他坐在矮桌北侧、内房所容许的角度上、坐在那块方席(bangseok)上。

他把两只手掌平放在桌面上。

他没有在桌面上放下那只青瓷杯。

那只青瓷杯,在礼拜二下午,搁在东门旁大厅(daecheong)那块矮松木搁板上——是他以从容的朝鲜士人姿态搁的;这只年长生灵把一只盛着大麦茶(boricha)的青瓷杯放在矮桌上的纪律,如今,以延续而来的破除派之故,已不再是那纪律。

我坐下。

我坐在矮桌南侧、内房所容许的角度上、坐在那块方席上,与他相隔一掌之距。

我把两只手掌平放在桌面上。

敏智坐下。

敏智坐在矮桌东侧、我右肩的方席上。

她把两只手掌平放在大腿上。

姜社长坐下。

姜社长坐在矮桌西侧、我左肩的方席上。

他把一只手掌平放在桌面上,另一只平放在右大腿上——以二〇二六年三月某个礼拜二下午、北村宅院内房里、一位六百岁独脚鬼那种从容的弘大味姿态。

海莉坐下。

海莉坐在矮桌东北角的方席上、在敏智半步之后、在他对面。

她把两只手掌平放在大腿上——以一只四尾生灵从容的朝鲜风纪律;她在北坡一百一十一年的纪律,已经以礼拜六上午七点十六分 B3 第二根柱子的那个私人钟点,决定了——决定在礼拜二下午、北村宅院中间那栋韩屋内房的矮桌上——出席。

他望向矮桌。

他望着它,以一只年长生灵缓慢从容的朝鲜士人姿态——这是七十三年的雪松木匣纪律里、第一次望见内房的矮桌旁坐着五只生灵。

他抬眼。

他望着我。

他说:我,在二〇二六年三月某个礼拜二下午四点半、北村宅院中间那栋韩屋内房的矮桌上、在破除派五件乐器编制之中,要把最后那一块说出来。最后那一块,是各块之下的那一块。是我以七十三年、以四百零三年——所收在唯一一只匣子里、那只雪松木匣未曾装下过的——一块。

我说:那只雪松木匣。

他说:是的,韩氏。那只雪松木匣,在那块矮松木搁板上,装过三样东西:朝鲜宫廷巫女、忠清道破除派一脉金开花的白亚麻丧带;朝鲜宫廷书法家、忠清道破除派一脉李时悦的玉簪——他在仁祖元年三月定雪第三日清晨、路旁神龛桑皮纸上写下的那七个音节,是破除派一脉向前发出的那通私人召唤的第一句话;以及西人党朝鲜士人在仁祖元年五月初七早晨南路下层神龛留下的那只雕花木铃。雪松木匣装过这三样。雪松木匣并未装下第四样。

我说:第四样。

他呼吸。

他呼吸,缓慢而均匀。

他说:第四样,七十三年雪松木匣纪律里,一直在那位年长生灵——其四百年纪律已在礼拜日下午四点零六分的第二口呼吸里结束——那件炭灰色羊毛毛衣的内袋里。

他望着我。

他望着我,近在咫尺,以他在灰色钟点四点十一分、排练厅镜面墙边所用过的那种清亮的朝鲜士人嗓音。

他说:韩氏。第四样,自礼拜日下午四点零六分矮桌上第二次表决以来,就在那件炭灰色羊毛毛衣的内袋里——那位斯坦福训练出的、忠清道破除派一脉的侨胞,在四点十一分的灰色钟点里,正是穿着这件毛衣,走出了北村宅院。

我坐着。

我没有,在矮桌上,眨眼。

我坐在矮桌一臂之距外的方席上,那位年长生灵——其四百年纪律已经结束——的炭灰色羊毛毛衣穿在我身上;左侧叠着那件灰色 Theory 大衣,里面是绿丝带的 JL 笔记本;我自己胸膛深处藏着仁祖元年五月初七清晨十一点零三分、一位朝鲜宫廷巫女之女、忠清道破除派一脉那口平直无元音的呼吸的四股编织语法——我,以矮桌上五件乐器的编制,伸出自己的右手,以一位破除派长女从容的朝鲜母亲姿态,伸进了矮桌北侧那位年长生灵那件炭灰色羊毛毛衣的内袋。

那只内袋,穿了五十三个小时之后,是温的。

那只内袋里有一样东西。

那样东西,以内袋、以年长生灵从容的朝鲜士人纪律之故,是轻的。

那样东西,以它在内袋里的重量,是一张折好的桑皮纸的重量。

我把它取出来。

我在二〇二六年三月某个礼拜二下午四点半、把它取出来,越过我们之间的那一小段距离,以一位破除派长女有节制的朝鲜母亲姿态。

那张折好的桑皮纸,在矮桌上,手里很轻。

它,以那四百零三年、以那「各块之下最后一块」之故,是那一块。

我把它放在矮桌上。

我把它放在矮桌中央,距他自己的两掌半步、距我自己的两掌半步、距敏智的两掌三分之一步、距姜社长的三分之一步、距海莉的半步——以一位破除派长女在二〇二六年三月礼拜二下午五件乐器编制四点三十一分、把第四样东西放在北村宅院中间那栋韩屋内房矮桌上的那种郑重的朝鲜母亲姿态。

他望着它。

他没有,在矮桌上,伸手去取它。

他望着我。

他说:第四样,是仁祖元年四月初四清晨第二刻、仁王山东肩禅岩花岗岩顶上、朝鲜宫廷巫女之女、忠清道破除派一脉尹达恩那条四股编织白亚麻丧带的第四股。

我说:第四股。

他说:是的,韩氏。第四股,在四月初四清晨第二刻、禅岩花岗岩顶上,是那只四尾生灵那口平直无元音的呼吸的一股——那只四尾生灵当时就在山坡上、就在四月初四清晨;而朝鲜宫廷巫女之女、破除派一脉,在花岗岩顶上,无法信任她自己的纪律。

我坐着。

我呼吸。

我缓缓吸了一口气。

我说:第四股,是唯一一只四月初四清晨在山坡上、其纪律不能为朝鲜宫廷巫女之女所信任的生灵的呼吸;那时她正在花岗岩顶上、在第二刻。

我说:那一只生灵,是你。

我说:而桑皮纸上的那一块——以一位四百年纪律已结束之年长生灵七十三年的雪松木匣纪律——是「第四股」之中、你自己四百零三年所承担的那一份;你把它收在炭灰色羊毛毛衣的内袋里。

我在二〇二六年三月礼拜二下午四点三十三分,把矮桌中央那张折好的桑皮纸打开。

那张桑皮纸,四百零三年之后,是软的。

那张桑皮纸——是被以朝鲜宫廷一只老掌之尺寸折起来的;那位年长生灵一六二三年的纪律,是按一只朝鲜宫廷老掌之尺寸折叠的、谨慎的朝鲜士人纪律——折成了三十二折的方块。

我打开。

我打开三十二次。

我从容地打开,以一位破除派长女从容的朝鲜母亲姿态——在二〇二六年三月某个礼拜二下午四点半、北村宅院中间那栋韩屋内房矮桌中央,把一张折好的桑皮纸打开。

那张展开的桑皮纸,是一张三十二折方块尺寸的、清亮的旧朝鲜宫廷桑皮纸方块。

那块清亮的方块上——以七十三年、以炭灰色羊毛毛衣内袋里那位年长生灵谨慎的朝鲜士人纪律——是那条四股编织的白亚麻丧带。

那条丧带,在二〇二六年三月礼拜二下午四点三十四分清亮的方块上,是那条丧带。

那条丧带——以仁祖元年四月初四清晨第二刻禅岩花岗岩顶上的故事、以仁祖元年五月初七清晨十一点零三分柳树林上方山坡上、那把村屠夫尖刀刀尖八毫米深的那一点的故事——是用过的。

那条丧带是被割断的。

那条丧带,在错误的刻度处、在第四股的位置上,被割断了。

那条丧带,在二〇二六年三月礼拜二下午四点三十四分清亮的方块上、北村宅院中间那栋韩屋内房的矮桌上,是用了四百零三年的丧带。

我望着它。

我望着它,就在矮桌中央近在咫尺。

我没有,在矮桌上,落泪。

那份克制,从盘浦大桥下那块滩地起,被守着。

我贴近坐在矮桌旁,以一位破除派长女缓慢从容的朝鲜母亲语法,望着那条丧带——那条由唯一一只生灵在四百零三年里独自承担的、独一无二的丧带;而那只生灵的纪律,正是我在仁祖元年四月初四清晨第二刻禅岩花岗岩顶上、以那口平直无元音的呼吸,决定了无法信任的纪律。

我望着。

我望了七口呼吸的工夫。

我呼吸。

我开口,以二〇二六年三月某个礼拜二下午四点半、北村宅院中间那栋韩屋内房矮桌上、一位破除派长女谨慎的朝鲜母亲语法:

社长님。

我说:您手上,矮桌上,已有了第四样。

我说:您肯让我死吗。

二〇二六年三月某个礼拜二下午四点半、北村宅院中间那栋韩屋的内房——在矮桌上一位破除派长女说出那一句话之时——是那间内房。

姜社长没有,在矮桌旁,动一下。

敏智没有,在矮桌旁,落泪。

海莉没有,在矮桌旁,眨眼。

他望着我。

他望着我,距我一掌之远,以一只四百年纪律已经结束之生灵那种沉静的朝鲜士人嗓音,矮桌中央、我们之间,是那条四股编织的白亚麻丧带。

他说:我已经,在二〇二六年二月二十二日礼拜日下午四点二十三分、北村宅院中间那栋韩屋内房矮桌上、以四点二十三分那一滴泪——以那一滴泪——回答过那个句子。那个句子,不是二〇二六年三月礼拜二下午、破除派长女在矮桌上四点三十六分问我的那个句子。

我坐着。

我呼吸。

他说:问吧。

我说:我——以矮桌对面、那通四百零三年又三天的破除派私人召唤——正在问那唯一一只生灵:仁祖元年四月初四清晨在山坡上的那一只、其纪律为朝鲜宫廷巫女之女、忠清道破除派一脉在禅岩花岗岩顶上第二刻无法信任的那一只——那一只生灵,在二〇二六年三月礼拜二下午、五件乐器编制四点三十七分、北村宅院中间那栋韩屋内房的矮桌上——以四百零三年于内袋里承担「第四股」之故——是否就是那一只、其纪律在近距离下、破除派长女可以信任的生灵。

他望着我。

他没有,在矮桌上,落泪。

那份克制,从盘浦大桥下那块滩地起——以破除派的五件乐器编制——由矮桌北侧那位年长生灵以谨慎的朝鲜士人纪律守着。

他鞠躬四十五度。

他保持着那一鞠。

他直起身来。

他开口,以一只四百年纪律已经结束之生灵那种有节制的朝鲜士人嗓音:

韩氏。

他说:我无法,以四百年又三天的承担,在礼拜二下午的矮桌上回答那个句子。那个句子,以五件乐器的编制,是这五件乐器、在破除派定雪所给予它们的四天里、要回答的句子。我会,在这四天里,把那「一块之下的一块」交给破除派长女——而在那一块上,破除派长女会,以她在大田的祖母七十九年之故,决定。那「一块之下的一块」是——在二〇二六年三月礼拜二下午四点三十九分的矮桌上——仁王山东路口村屠夫摊上、那只属于朝鲜宫廷一脉的四尾生灵;仁祖元年五月初七清晨,西人党那个错误的下级身躯,正是奉命来听这只生灵的指令的。那只生灵,是北汉山山神。北汉山山神在五月初七清晨、是属于朝鲜宫廷一脉的山神;他自己的纪律——以我在矮桌上、终于读得通的那四百零三年雪松木匣囤积的故事——是那种纪律:以我曾在五月初七清晨、经四个月的准备之后所拒绝使用的那唯一一件乐器,去打断东肩上那唯一一只生灵(也就是我)的升天。那件乐器,依东路口那位女子四十六年的厨房之故,是朝鲜宫廷巫女之女、忠清道破除派一脉的尹达恩。那件乐器,就是你。

我坐在矮桌旁。

我呼吸。

我没有,在矮桌上,落泪。

我说:那件乐器——以矮桌中央那张清亮桑皮纸方块上四股编织的白亚麻丧带之故——也是你。

他鞠躬四十五度。

他保持着。

他直起身来。

我说:这四天。

我说:我们以我自己在大田的祖母三点十一分电话之故,有四天,去决定:仁祖元年五月初七清晨北汉山山神纪律里的那件乐器,是否将——以三神奶奶的织机、以破除派的定雪、以那条四股编织的白亚麻丧带——以二〇二六年三月礼拜二下午四点四十一分矮桌上的破除派长女之故——成为延续而来之破除派的那件乐器。

我说:这个决定,是我的。

我说:boricha斟上。

他站起来。

他在二〇二六年三月某个礼拜二下午四点四十二分,以一只四百年纪律已经结束之年长生灵那种从容的朝鲜士人姿态站起,走到东门旁大厅那块矮松木搁板前,取下他先前搁在那里的那只青瓷杯——以及他搁在它旁边的那只白瓷杯——以及那只圆柱形大麦茶罐:那是一九八九年秋、龙门洞市场上那位老大邱味女子卖给他这一家的大邱味大麦茶——以及厨房那只水壶——他又以从容的朝鲜士人姿态走回来,把这四样物事,在二〇二六年三月礼拜二下午四点四十三分,搁在矮桌中央——距那张带着四股编织白亚麻丧带的桑皮纸方块半步之处。

他斟茶。

他斟了四杯。

他给我斟了一杯。他给敏智斟了一杯。他给姜社长斟了一杯。他给海莉斟了一杯。

他没有给自己斟一杯。

那一份「不为自己斟」——以五件乐器的编制——正是那一块:那一块使得二〇二六年三月礼拜二下午、矮桌北侧那唯一一只生灵——在矮桌上——成为那条四股编织白亚麻丧带在仁祖元年四月初四清晨第二刻禅岩花岗岩顶上、以「第四股」之故所注定要编织成的第五件乐器。

他坐下。

他把两只手掌平放在矮桌上、那张桑皮纸方块的两侧。

他望着我。

他说:请饮。

我饮。

我饮下那杯大邱味的大麦茶——在二〇二六年三月某个礼拜二下午四点半又半分的时候、北村宅院中间那栋韩屋内房的矮桌上——那条四股编织的白亚麻丧带在矮桌中央、距我自己的白瓷杯半步;我右肩的破除派小妹妹也饮,我左肩的独脚鬼也饮,半步之后北坡的四尾生灵也饮。

第五位,在矮桌旁,未饮。

那四天,以boricha、以那条四股编织的白亚麻丧带、以五件乐器的编制——开始了。

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Chapter Twenty-Three

The pine gate was open.

It was open from the inside.

It was open by the steady hand of an older creature who had — by seventy-three years of cedar-box discipline of latching every Sunday afternoon at four-oh-one — learned not to leave the pine gate of the Bukchon compound latched at four o'clock on a Tuesday afternoon in March of 2026, against the four-instrument arrangement become five at half-past eleven on the Tuesday morning of the Tuesday-Thursday rehearsal room of the JL building above the Hangang.

He had opened it himself at eleven-fifteen.

He had not, on the maru of the middle hanok at eleven-fifteen on Tuesday morning of March of 2026, in the lifting jeong-seol, gone back inside the anbang.

He had stayed — by the mirrored wall of the rehearsal room at eleven-twelve — at the lower step of the maru of the middle hanok of the Bukchon compound on the clear cold winter morning of a Tuesday in March of 2026: the creature who had been, for seventy-three years, the one creature in the Bukchon compound on a Sunday afternoon at four-oh-one, and who was no longer, by the five-instrument arrangement, the one creature.

He had stayed at the lower step of the maru for the four hours and forty-five minutes the Genesis of the JL building was — on the unhurried Tuesday-morning Hannam-Bukchon loop and the clean unsleeping Seoul Metro Line 3 and the short walk up the Bukchon hill — going to take to deliver, by the paje-line younger sister at her right shoulder and the Hongdae-coded dokkaebi of the Sangsudong twenty-four-hour bingsu place at her left and the four-tailed creature of the north slope of Bukhansan at the half-step behind, the Stanford-trained gyopo of the paje line of Chungcheong-do whose own four-hundred-year-and-three-day private call sent forward had, by the jeong-seol lifting, decided.

The four hours and forty-five minutes had been, on the lower step of the maru of the middle hanok in the clear cold winter morning of a Tuesday in March of 2026, the four hours and forty-five minutes.

He had not, on the lower step, taken the phone out of the interior pocket of the charcoal-grey wool overcoat which — after the second breath at four-oh-six on Sunday afternoon — he had, at the low pine chair by the east door of the anbang on the Sunday morning, put on instead of the charcoal-grey wool sweater of his own four-hundred-year discipline, which had — by the second vote at the low table at four-oh-six and especially of the one tear at four-twenty-three — gone down the Bukchon hill on the body of the Stanford-trained gyopo whose own deciding the second vote had been.

He had not, on the lower step, checked the JL building.

He had not checked any of his three Daechi-dong tutoring chains.

He had not checked any of his four Bukchon Han-yak clinics.

He had not checked the holding company in the name of Han Ji-won that had, since five-oh-three on the Sunday evening of February the twenty-fourth of 2026, been the holding company of a Stanford-trained gyopo of the paje line of Chungcheong-do whose own grandmother in Daejeon was, by the jeong-seol on the Cheongju grave, the one woman in the line whose deciding had, on the unhurried Sunday afternoon of February the twenty-second of 2026, been the deciding by which that holding company was, by the chairman of JL, in the name of Han Ji-won.

He had, on the lower step, for four hours and forty-five minutes, breathed.

He had breathed once. He had breathed twice. He had breathed three times.

He had, on the lower step, kept the steady warm of the marble under his tongue at the steady warm of the marble.

It was going to be, on the lower step of the maru at the fourth hour of the afternoon of a Tuesday in March of 2026, by the five-instrument arrangement of the paje-line, the steady warm of the marble at the paje-line elder daughter's approach.


She came up.

She came up the Bukchon hill in the charcoal-grey wool sweater of his own four-hundred-year discipline that had — on the second breath at four-oh-six on Sunday afternoon — ended; and under the sweater the gray Theory coat of a Stanford-trained gyopo; and in the coat's interior pocket the green-ribboned JL notebook with the bujeok of cinnabar on mulberry paper of the old Insadong-coded woman who was — by the paje-line younger sister at her right shoulder — the grandmother of Min-ji's grandmother in Daegu; and at her right shoulder the paje-line younger sister in her own grey cardigan over the soft black tee, the white linen pocket-square with its own bujeok in the cardigan's interior pocket; and at her left shoulder the Hongdae-coded dokkaebi in the quilted brown vest the color of a winter river and the black baseball cap with no logo; and at the half-step behind them the four-tailed creature of the north slope of Bukhansan in the black down jacket of a Tuesday-morning vocal trainee of the JL building at four o'clock on a Tuesday afternoon in March of 2026.

The Genesis had let them out at the Bukchon Cultural Center at three-forty-eight.

They had walked.

They had walked, by the five-instrument arrangement and the clear cold winter afternoon of a Tuesday in March of 2026, the six-minute walk up the Bukchon hill that the Stanford-trained gyopo had, on the Sunday afternoon of February the twenty-second of 2026, walked up for the first time.

She had walked up at the same pace.

She had walked up not — by the paje-line younger sister and the jeong-seol and the further piece and the five-instrument arrangement — in the slow flat unhurried Joseon-mother way of the first Sunday afternoon, but in the steady Joseon-mother way of a paje-line elder daughter of Chungcheong-do whose own grandmother in Daejeon had, by the jeong-seol on the Cheongju grave of her own mother and the two-minute phone call at three-eleven on the Tuesday afternoon, said only:

Granddaughter. Go up the hill. I have, on the jeong-seol of our line, said what was mine to say. The rest is yours.

She had said: Halmoni, will you come up.

Her grandmother had paused.

Her grandmother had paused for the count of three breaths.

Her grandmother had said: Granddaughter. I will, by the jeong-seol of our line, come up. I will not come up today. I will come up on the day the Joseon mudang's daughter of the paje line of Chungcheong-do — on the fourth morning of the fourth month of the first year of King Injo's reign, on the granite cap of the Seonbawi rocks of the east shoulder of Inwangsan at the second hour — decided was the day a paje-line elder daughter of Chungcheong-do, with the braided four-strand white linen mourning ribbon at her own left wrist, was, by the loom of Samshin halmoni, going to come up. That day is, by my reading of the jeong-seol of our line, the morning of the seventh of the fifth month of the second year of the reign of the president of the Republic of Korea who is, by the paje-line carried onward, the president to whose Chief of Staff a private call is owed. That morning is, by the Western calendar, four days from the Tuesday afternoon. On that morning I will, by seventy-nine years of carrying the private call forward, be on the Bukchon hill at the pine gate of the Bukchon compound. Until that morning, granddaughter — the four days are the four days you have, by the jeong-seol, been given to learn the grammar of the private call on the low table of the anbang of the middle hanok of the Bukchon compound from the older creature whose own four-hundred-year discipline has, on the second breath at four-oh-six, ended. Learn carefully, granddaughter. The grammar is not the grammar of any other Korean line. The grammar is, by the line as it carries onward, yours.

Halmoni had said: Take the paje-line younger sister with you. She is, by the old Insadong-coded woman, the one Korean body whose own grandmother in Daegu is — by the face in the mirror above the kitchen sink since the seventh of the second month of this year — the one Korean grandmother whose deciding on the paje-line is mine to share.

Halmoni had said: Take the dokkaebi. He is, by seventy-three years of the older creature's cedar-box discipline, the one creature in the Bukchon compound whose discipline is the discipline by which the five-instrument arrangement is, on the Tuesday afternoon, the five-instrument arrangement.

Halmoni had said: Take the four-tailed creature of the north slope. She is, by the second pillar of B3 at seven-fifteen on Saturday morning, the one creature whose own discipline has, on the private hour, decided to stand with the paje-line carried onward instead of with the reincarnated creature of her own senior of the year nineteen-fifty-three at the north slope of Bukhansan.

Halmoni had said: Granddaughter. Go up.

I had said: The one piece I have not, on the phone, told you.

Halmoni had said: Granddaughter. I have, by seventy-nine years, known the one piece. It is the one piece I have, by the loom of Samshin halmoni, been waiting to be told. I am telling you only that I have not told it, and the telling, when it comes — on a low table on a Saturday morning of a fifth month of a first year of a new arithmetic of a paje-line carried onward — will be the telling.

Halmoni had said: Granddaughter. Go.

She had gone.

She had gone — by the phone call at three-eleven and the paje-line younger sister at her right shoulder and the Hongdae-coded dokkaebi at her left and the four-tailed creature of the north slope at the half-step behind — up the Bukchon hill in the clear cold winter afternoon of a Tuesday in March of 2026 to the pine gate of the Bukchon compound, which had, by the jeong-seol lifting, been opened from the inside at eleven-fifteen on the Tuesday morning.

She arrived at the pine gate at four o'clock.

She did not, at the gate, knock.

She walked through.

She walked through the pine gate of the Bukchon compound at the fourth hour of the afternoon of a Tuesday in March of 2026, in the charcoal-grey wool sweater of an older creature whose own four-hundred-year discipline had ended, with the paje-line younger sister at her right shoulder and the dokkaebi at her left and the four-tailed creature of the north slope at the half-step behind, and she crossed the inner courtyard at the seven-centimeter snow now melted back to three, the wet jeong-seol of the paje-line.

He was on the lower step.

He was on the lower step of the maru of the middle hanok, in the charcoal-grey wool overcoat of an older creature whose own four-hundred-year discipline had ended, the celadon cup in his hands.

The celadon cup was, after the four hours and forty-five minutes, empty.

He stood up.

He stood up at the lower step of the maru of the middle hanok at the fourth hour of the afternoon of a Tuesday in March of 2026 in the unhurried Joseon-scholar way of a creature whose four-hundred-year discipline of being the one who stood when she arrived had — by the five-instrument arrangement — agreed to be no longer the discipline of an older creature standing for a younger creature, but the discipline of an older creature standing for a paje-line elder daughter of the line that had, by the flat un-vowelled breath, decided.

He bowed Fifteen degrees.

I bowed Fifteen degrees.

He bowed to the paje-line younger sister at my right shoulder.

Fifteen.

She bowed Fifteen degrees.

He bowed to the dokkaebi at my left.

Five.

The dokkaebi inclined his head.

Five.

He bowed to the four-tailed creature of the north slope at the half-step behind.

Five.

She bowed back.

Five.

The five-five-fifteen-fifteen of the fourth hour of the afternoon of a Tuesday in March of 2026 at the lower step of the maru of the middle hanok of the Bukchon compound was, by the five-instrument arrangement, the first ratification.

He said, in the careful Joseon-scholar voice of a creature whose own four-hundred-year discipline had ended:

Han-ssi.

I said, in the Joseon-mother grammar of a Stanford-trained gyopo of the paje line of Chungcheong-do at the lower step of the maru at the fourth hour of the afternoon of a Tuesday in March of 2026:

Sajangnim.

He said: Min-ji-ssi. Mr. Kang. Hae-ri-ssi.

The three said, in the clean unembarrassed careful Korean of three creatures who had been brought, by the five-instrument arrangement, to the lower step:

Sajangnim.

He bowed again.

Fifteen.

He said: Come up.

We came up.


The anbang of the middle hanok of the Bukchon compound at half-past four of the afternoon of a Tuesday in March of 2026, in the clear cold winter sun of a Korean late winter on the Bukchon roof, was the anbang.

The low table at the center of the anbang was the low table.

The folded futon of the heated ondol was, by his own folding-of-the-futon at seven-oh-three on the grey morning of a Sunday in March of 2026 — after the grey hour at four-eleven and the leaving by the paje-line elder daughter at four-fifteen — folded.

The low pine cabinet of the western wall was, after the Saturday morning of the cedar-box-coming-out and the Sunday afternoon of the saying-on-the-table and the Sunday-evening putting-back-of-the-cedar-box, closed.

The cedar box was, on the low pine shelf above the lower drawer, where it had been on the grey morning at four-thirteen on a Sunday morning in March of 2026 — where I had, on the grey morning, not taken it.

He sat.

He sat at the low table on the bangseok cushion at the angle the anbang permitted at the north side of the low table.

He set both palms flat on the table.

He did not, on the table, place the celadon cup.

The celadon cup was, on the Tuesday afternoon, on the low pine shelf of the daecheong by the east door, where he had — in the unhurried Joseon-scholar way of an older creature whose discipline of placing a celadon cup of boricha on a low table was now, by the paje-line carried onward, no longer the discipline — set it.

I sat.

I sat at the low table on the bangseok cushion at the angle the anbang permitted at the south side, a hand-span away.

I set both palms flat on the table.

Min-ji sat.

Min-ji sat at the bangseok cushion at the east side of the low table at my right shoulder.

She set both palms flat on her thighs.

Mr. Kang sat.

Mr. Kang sat at the bangseok cushion at the west side of the low table at my left shoulder.

He set one hand flat on the table and the other flat on his right thigh in the unhurried Hongdae-coded way of a six-hundred-year dokkaebi at the anbang of the Bukchon compound on the Tuesday afternoon of March 2026.

Hae-ri sat.

Hae-ri sat at the bangseok cushion at the north-east corner of the low table at the half-step behind Min-ji and across the table from him.

She set both palms flat on her thighs in the unhurried Joseon-coded discipline of a four-tailed creature whose own one-hundred-and-eleven-year discipline at the north slope had, by the private hour at the second pillar of B3 at seven-sixteen on Saturday morning, decided to be — at the low table of the anbang of the middle hanok of the Bukchon compound on the Tuesday afternoon — present.

He looked at the low table.

He looked at it in the slow unhurried Joseon-scholar way of an older creature looking, for the first time in seventy-three years of cedar-box discipline, at the low table of the anbang with five creatures at it.

He looked up.

He looked at me.

He said: I am, on the low table of the anbang of the middle hanok of the Bukchon compound at half-past four of the afternoon of a Tuesday in March of 2026, in the five-instrument arrangement of the paje-line, going to tell the last piece. The last piece is the piece beneath the pieces. It is the piece I have, by the seventy-three years and the four hundred and three years, kept in the one box the cedar box has not held.

I said: The cedar box.

He said: Yes, Han-ssi. The cedar box has, on the low pine shelf, held three things: the white linen mourning ribbon of the Joseon-court mudang Kim Gae-hwa of the paje line of Chungcheong-do; the jade jjokji-hairpin of the Joseon-court calligrapher Lee Si-yul of the paje line of Chungcheong-do, whose seven syllables on the mulberry paper of the wayside shrine on the morning of the third day of the jeong-seol of the third month of the first year of King Injo's reign were the first sentence of the private call of the paje line sent forward; and the carved wooden bell of the Joseon scholar of the Westerners' faction at the lower shrine on the south path on the morning of the seventh of the fifth month of the first year of King Injo's reign. The cedar box has held these three. The cedar box has not held the fourth.

I said: The fourth.

He breathed.

He breathed, slow and even.

He said: The fourth has, in the seventy-three years of cedar-box discipline, been in the inner pocket of the charcoal-grey wool sweater of an older creature whose own four-hundred-year discipline has, on the second breath at four-oh-six on Sunday afternoon, ended.

He looked at me.

He looked at me at close range, in the clear Joseon-scholar voice he had used, on the grey hour at four-eleven, on the mirrored wall of the Tuesday-Thursday rehearsal room.

He said: Han-ssi. The fourth has, since the second vote at the low table at four-oh-six on Sunday afternoon, been in the inner pocket of the charcoal-grey wool sweater the Stanford-trained gyopo of the paje line of Chungcheong-do — in the grey hour at four-eleven — walked out of the Bukchon compound in.

I sat.

I did not, on the low table, blink.

I sat at the low table on the bangseok cushion an arm’s length off with the charcoal-grey wool sweater of an older creature whose own four-hundred-year discipline had ended on my body, the green-ribboned JL notebook in the interior pocket of the gray Theory coat folded at my left, and the braided four-strand grammar of the flat un-vowelled breath of a Joseon mudang's daughter of the paje line of Chungcheong-do at eleven-oh-three on the morning of the seventh of the fifth month of the first year of King Injo's reign in the interior of my own chest — and I, by the five-instrument arrangement at the low table, slid my own right hand, in the unhurried Joseon-mother way of a paje-line elder daughter, into the inner pocket of the charcoal-grey wool sweater of the older creature at the north side of the low table.

The inner pocket was, after fifty-three hours of wearing, warm.

In the inner pocket was a thing.

The thing, by the inner pocket and the unhurried Joseon-scholar discipline of the older creature, was light.

The thing was, by its weight in the inner pocket, the weight of a folded piece of mulberry paper.

I took it out.

I took it out at half-past four of the afternoon of a Tuesday in March of 2026, the short distance between us, in the measured Joseon-mother way of a paje-line elder daughter.

The folded piece of mulberry paper was, on the low table, light in the hand.

It was, by the four hundred and three years and the last piece beneath the pieces, the piece.

I set it on the low table.

I set it at the center of the low table, a half-step from his own two palms and a half-step from my own two palms and a third of a step from Min-ji's two palms and a third from Mr. Kang's and a half from Hae-ri's — in the deliberate Joseon-mother way of a paje-line elder daughter setting the fourth thing on the low table of the anbang of the middle hanok of the Bukchon compound on the Tuesday afternoon of the five-instrument arrangement at four-thirty-one.

He looked at it.

He did not, on the low table, reach for it.

He looked at me.

He said: The fourth is the fourth strand of the braided four-strand white linen mourning ribbon of the Joseon-court mudang's daughter Yun Da-eun of the paje line of Chungcheong-do on the granite cap of the Seonbawi rocks of the east shoulder of Inwangsan at the second hour of the fourth morning of the fourth month of the first year of King Injo's reign.

I said: The fourth strand.

He said: Yes, Han-ssi. The fourth strand was, on the granite cap of the Seonbawi rocks at the second hour of the fourth morning, the strand of the flat un-vowelled breath of the four-tailed creature on the slope at the fourth morning of the fourth month whose own discipline the Joseon mudang's daughter of the paje line, on the granite cap, could not trust.

I sat.

I breathed.

I took a slow breath.

I said: The fourth strand is the breath of the one creature on the slope at the fourth morning whose own discipline the Joseon mudang's daughter, on the granite cap of the Seonbawi rocks at the second hour, could not trust.

I said: The one creature was you.

I said: And the piece on the folded mulberry paper is — by seventy-three years of cedar-box discipline of an older creature whose own four-hundred-year discipline has ended — the piece of the fourth strand the four hundred and three years of your own carrying has, in the inner pocket of the charcoal-grey wool sweater, kept.

I unfolded the folded piece of mulberry paper at the center of the low table at four-thirty-three on the afternoon of Tuesday March of 2026.

The mulberry paper was, after four hundred and three years, soft.

The mulberry paper had been folded — to the measure of the old Joseon-court palm of an older creature whose 1623 discipline was the careful Joseon-scholar discipline of folding to the measure of an older Joseon-court palm — into a thirty-two-fold square.

I unfolded.

I unfolded thirty-two times.

I unfolded in the unhurried Joseon-mother way of a paje-line elder daughter unfolding a folded piece of mulberry paper at the center of the low table of the anbang of the middle hanok of the Bukchon compound at half-past four of the afternoon of a Tuesday in March of 2026.

The unfolded mulberry paper was a clear square of old Joseon-court mulberry paper at the measure of the thirty-two-fold square.

On the clear square was — by seventy-three years and the careful Joseon-scholar discipline of the older creature in the inner pocket of the charcoal-grey wool sweater — the braided four-strand white linen mourning ribbon.

The ribbon was, on the clear square at four-thirty-four on the afternoon of Tuesday March of 2026, the ribbon.

The ribbon was — by the granite cap of the Seonbawi rocks at the second hour of the fourth morning of the fourth month of the first year of King Injo's reign and the eight-millimeter point from the tip of the village butcher's knife on the slope above the willow grove at eleven-oh-three on the morning of the seventh of the fifth month of the first year of King Injo's reign — used.

The ribbon was cut.

The ribbon was cut at the fourth strand at the measure of the wrong notch.

The ribbon was, on the clear square at four-thirty-four on the afternoon of Tuesday March of 2026 on the low table of the anbang of the middle hanok of the Bukchon compound, four hundred and three years used.

I looked at it.

I looked at it at the center of the low table near at hand.

I did not, on the low table, weep.

The reservation, since the strip under the Banpo Bridge, was held.

I sat at the low table close by and looked, in the slow unhurried Joseon-mother grammar of a paje-line elder daughter, at the four hundred and three years of the one carrying of the one ribbon by the one creature whose own discipline I had, on the granite cap of the Seonbawi rocks at the second hour of the fourth morning of the fourth month of the first year of King Injo's reign, in the flat un-vowelled breath, decided I could not trust.

I looked.

I looked for the count of seven breaths.

I breathed.

I said, in the careful Joseon-mother grammar of a paje-line elder daughter at the low table of the anbang of the middle hanok of the Bukchon compound at half-past four of the afternoon of a Tuesday in March of 2026:

Sajangnim.

I said: You have, on the low table, the fourth.

I said: Will you let me die.

The anbang of the middle hanok of the Bukchon compound at half-past four of the afternoon of a Tuesday in March of 2026, on the one sentence of a paje-line elder daughter at the low table, was the anbang.

Mr. Kang did not, at the low table, move.

Min-ji did not, at the low table, weep.

Hae-ri did not, at the low table, blink.

He looked at me.

He looked at me a hand-span away, in the quiet Joseon-scholar voice of a creature whose own four-hundred-year discipline had ended, with the braided four-strand white linen mourning ribbon at the center of the low table between us.

He said: I have, on the low table of the anbang of the middle hanok of the Bukchon compound on the Sunday afternoon of February the twenty-second of 2026 at four-twenty-three, at the one tear at four-twenty-three — already, by the one tear, answered that sentence. That sentence is not, on the Tuesday afternoon of March 2026, the sentence the paje-line elder daughter is, at the low table at four-thirty-six, asking me.

I sat.

I breathed.

He said: Ask.

I said: I am — by the four-hundred-and-three-year-and-three-day private call of the paje-line across the table — asking the one creature on the slope at the fourth morning of the fourth month of the first year of King Injo's reign whose own discipline the Joseon mudang's daughter of the paje line of Chungcheong-do, on the granite cap of the Seonbawi rocks at the second hour, could not trust — whether that creature, on the Tuesday afternoon of the five-instrument arrangement at four-thirty-seven on the low table of the anbang of the middle hanok of the Bukchon compound, is — by the four hundred and three years of carrying the fourth strand in the inner pocket — the creature whose discipline the paje-line elder daughter, at close range, can.

He looked at me.

He did not, at the low table, weep.

The reservation, from the strip under the Banpo Bridge, was — by the five-instrument arrangement of the paje-line — held by the careful Joseon-scholar discipline of the older creature at the north side of the low table.

He bowed Forty-five degrees.

He held the bow.

He straightened.

He said, in the measured Joseon-scholar voice of a creature whose own four-hundred-year discipline had ended:

Han-ssi.

He said: I cannot, by the four-hundred-year-and-three-day carrying, answer that sentence at the low table on the Tuesday afternoon. That sentence is, by the five-instrument arrangement, the sentence the five instruments, on the four days the jeong-seol of the paje-line has given them, are going to answer. I will, across the four days, give the paje-line elder daughter the piece beneath the piece — and on that piece, the paje-line elder daughter will, by seventy-nine years of her own grandmother in Daejeon, decide. The piece beneath the piece is — at the low table at four-thirty-nine on the afternoon of Tuesday March of 2026 — the four-tailed creature of the Joseon-court line at the village butcher's stall at the foot of the east path of Inwangsan on the morning of the seventh of the fifth month of the first year of King Injo's reign, whose instruction the wrong junior body of the Westerners' faction had, on that morning, been given The creature was Bukhansan-sanshin Bukhansan-sanshin had, on the morning of the seventh of the fifth month, been the mountain god of the Joseon-court line whose own discipline was — by the four hundred and three years of cedar-box hoarding I have, on the low table, finally been able to read — the discipline of breaking the ascension of the one creature on the east shoulder (the one creature being me) by the one instrument I had, on the morning of the seventh of the fifth month, by the four-month preparation, refused to use. The instrument was, by the forty-six-year kitchen of the woman at the foot of the east path, the Joseon-court mudang's daughter Yun Da-eun of the paje line of Chungcheong-do. The instrument was you.

I sat at the low table.

I breathed.

I did not, at the low table, weep.

I said: The instrument was — by the braided four-strand white linen mourning ribbon on the clear square of mulberry paper at the center of the low table — also you.

He bowed Forty-five degrees.

He held it.

He straightened.

I said: The four days.

I said: We have, by my own grandmother in Daejeon on the phone at three-eleven, four days to decide whether the instrument of Bukhansan-sanshin's discipline on the morning of the seventh of the fifth month of the first year of King Injo's reign is — by the loom of Samshin halmoni and the jeong-seol of the paje-line and the braided four-strand white linen mourning ribbon — going to be, by the paje-line elder daughter at the low table at four-forty-one on the afternoon of Tuesday March of 2026, the instrument of the paje-line as it carries onward.

I said: The deciding is mine.

I said: Pour the boricha.

He stood.

He stood at four-forty-two of the afternoon of a Tuesday in March of 2026 in the unhurried Joseon-scholar way of an older creature whose own four-hundred-year discipline had ended, and he walked to the low pine shelf of the daecheong by the east door, and he took the celadon cup he had set there — and the porcelain cup he had set beside it — and the cylindrical boricha canister of the Daegu-coded barley tea the old Daegu-coded woman of the Yongmun-dong market had, in the autumn of nineteen-eighty-nine, sold to his own household — and the kettle of the kitchen — and he came back, in the unhurried Joseon-scholar way, with the four, and he set them at the center of the low table a half-step from the clear square of mulberry paper with the braided four-strand white linen mourning ribbon at four-forty-three on the afternoon of Tuesday March of 2026.

He poured.

He poured four cups.

He poured one for me. He poured one for Min-ji. He poured one for Mr. Kang. He poured one for Hae-ri.

He did not pour one for himself.

The not-pouring for himself was, by the five-instrument arrangement, the piece by which the one creature at the north side of the low table, on the Tuesday afternoon of March 2026, was — at the low table — the fifth instrument the braided four-strand white linen mourning ribbon had, on the granite cap of the Seonbawi rocks at the second hour of the fourth morning of the fourth month of the first year of King Injo's reign, by the fourth strand, been braided to be.

He sat.

He set both palms flat on the low table on either side of the clear square of mulberry paper.

He looked at me.

He said: Drink.

I drank.

I drank the Daegu-coded boricha at half-past four and a half-minute of the afternoon of a Tuesday in March of 2026 on the low table of the anbang of the middle hanok of the Bukchon compound, with the braided four-strand white linen mourning ribbon at the center of the low table a half-step from my own porcelain cup, and the paje-line younger sister at my right shoulder drank, and the dokkaebi at my left drank, and the four-tailed creature of the north slope at the half-step behind drank.

The fifth, at the low table, did not.

The four days had, by the boricha and the braided four-strand white linen mourning ribbon and the five-instrument arrangement, begun.